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I wanted to download this song

A few years ago

When my hurt was great

When my misery is bad

When my dream is almost gone

When

When… I thought life is over

I see myself back then

Hurt and shattered

By my search for something real

And a desire to be loved truthfully

By someone who taught me

And a reason for goodbye

Why is it hard to love someone

Who couldn’t love you honestly

Back then

My heart chases the fading light

of a friendship that I thought to be sure

my tears flowed with the falling rain

running through my hardened face

for once, I seek comfort

from this lonely, melancholic song

of Lindsay Lohan

but I’ve got no direction where to find it in the internet

for I sold my heart to misery

so I cried everytime I listen to this song

on the radio in the middle of the night

a few years after

I finally downloaded this song

When my head is clear

When I left my excess baggage

When my heart learned something

I know it’s déjà vu…

To look back and smile

How fool I was way back then

Everytime I listen to the same song again

(In my overloaded ipod)

Nostalgia hits a spot in me,

Phoenix

shattered glass

shard

an old friend texted me today
he told me to drop by his office
I wanted to see him
but something
bothered me deep inside
something tells
me I am not over yet
remembering the
times we’ve been through
outside
He was a child who lost his way
and wanted to be loved truthfully
but he treated everything like a game
he bet his
future in exchange
for smoke and mirrors
I was a child who doesn’t know
what I should
do with my lonely life
I treated my feelings for him seriously
hoping I could
feel the warmth
I didn’t felt for those who process
they loved me truthfully
but I can’t see
through the smokes and mirrors
he cast in my eyes and heart
until the child
in me got lost
and he lost his innocence too
long time
ago

inside
everything
seemed complicated for me
but I loved the
way he put the stars in my dreams
holding me throughout the cold cold night
before I
uncovered his plot to confuse me
with his sugary lies and deceptive whispers
then pain and melancholy stuck in me
everything
seemed complicated for him
but he made me happy with his double-crossing
promises
somehow I knew
I affected his life with my reveries
that we shared
in the middle of midnight poetry
but I know he
knew I truly loved his alter-ego
when I drifted
away from his cover ups
today
he wants me to
remember him
and I
remembered him badly tonight
I wanted to
tell him how sorry I was
and he might
felt sorry for me as well
for not truly
playing the same old game fairly
the game of
deceiving hearts
and ironic
whispers
opposite the
shadow of friendship
what we might
have for each other
is a just a
friendly feeling now
so if he
invited me to watch a movie
on his first
salary by the end of the month
doesn’t mean he
wants the same old scenario back
that I would
fall for his trap
and I’ll
willingly be trapped again
so even if try
to be defensive
and assume the
spark that we once had
might be
rekindled
I know now how
to get out in the labyrinth of his stare
because I know
deep inside
that he might
have loved me before
and still
realized he learned to love my eccentricities
even until now
but it is too
late
way too late
I had moved on
for good
what’s left is
a shard and reflection
of a friend
and a love for
a friend

sometimes I assume too much…phoenix

cherry cherry boom boom!

kiss

Friend

there are many things I can’t finish on time

there are even a lot of reasons why I can’t reason out

to the queries of my heart seeking enlightenment

I wish you could light up my life someday

and bring back the sunshine in my day

but I am stuck in the middle of nowhere

It seems that the answer I was looking for

remains a “wishful-thinking” revery

Dear friend

there is something I’d like to tell you

there might be something that keeps me holding on

about the weight of the words you said to me

though it’s blunt in a literal way

these are cosmic rays in my starless sky

and heartfelt statement for you

It’s like stardust scattered in my infinite heaven

pulling my eyes to look above and wait for a falling star

but it was rain that fell like tears of the moon

clothe me with the coldness of your silence

Best friend

there are “half-truths” I wanted to stripped inside me

there might be “could-have-beens” I should have disclosed

where are we in this cyber realm of endless oceans

every hour I pay for the “sign-ins” and “sign-outs”

left me with bruises and scars of bewilderment

I should have told you I am dying in waiting

drowning and heavily breathing from the curse of this heart

willing to give it sincerely to you

without expecting any return

but only a kiss of flame

could set me free

from chain

forever

I wish you could hear this plea

Phoenix

breaking free

Finally, after months of taking a break from all amnesia, I need to break free from the chains of silence and be myself again. Though I did great things in my life for the past year, I'm still searching for something I haven't find yet. That would be something I need to understand and live by day after day...

my art is too personal and nobody could dictate me what I should do with it.

my truth is always an equal with reality--I need to fix things before I could say Im a better person.

love sucks when you can't love selflessly... loneliness can kill people deep down inside.

wish me luck.

popstruck!

Stand up Divas!

Pop history is once again made when fifteen of the most sensational pop singers and divas unite to lend their voices for a groundbreaking song "Just Stand Up". Written by American songwriters Antonio L.A. Reid and Babyface, the proceeds of the single will benefit Just Stand Uf Cancer organization, a beautiful cause that combined the most beautiful voices in the world such as Mariah Carey, Beyonce, Miley Cyrus, Rihanna, Le Anne Rimes, Carrie Uncerwood, Leona Lewis, Fergie, Ashanti, Ciara, Sheryl Crow and a lot more.

It is a testament of musical power that could help send the message of hope and compassion. I hope this song would reach the top of the charts worldwide for its lovely message. And I'd love to know that these pop artists are not battling for pop supremacy but for musical harmony.

So here's a tidbit info and lyrics of the song I got from http://www.theinsider.com/

''Just Stand Up'' to cancer -Mariah, Beyonce, Rihanna, Leona
NEW EXCLUSIVE! ''Just Stand Up'' to cancer Performed by: Carrie Underwood Beyoncé Rihanna Mariah Carey Ciara Melissa Etheridge Mary J Blige LeAnn Rimes Leona Lewis Keyshia Cole Ashanti Sheryl Crow Natasha Bedingfield Fergie Miley Cyrus LYRICS: Beyonce: The heart is stronger than you think It's like it can go through anything And even when you think it can't it finds a way to still push on, though Carrie: Sometimes you want to run away Ain't got the patience for the pain And if you don't believe it look into your heart the beat goes on Rihanna: I'm tellin' you that Things get better Through whatever If you fall, dust it off, don't let up Sheryl: Don't you know you can go be your own miracle Beyonce: You need to know CHORUS Sheryl: If the mind keeps thinking you've had enough But the heart keeps telling you don't give up Sheryl/Beyonce: Who are we to be questioning, wondering what is what Don't give up THROUGH IT ALL, JUST STAND UP! Fergie: It's like we all have better days Problems getting all up in your face Leona: Just because you go through it Fergie: Don't mean it got to take control, no Leona: You ain't gotta find no hiding place Keyshia: Because the heart can beat the hate Leona: Don't wanna let your mind keep playin' you Keyshia: And sayin' you can't go on Rihanna: I'm tellin' you that Miley: Things get better Through whatever Rihanna: If you fall Miley: Dust if off, don't let up LeAnn: Don't you know you Natasha: Can go LeAnn: Be your own Natasha: Miracle Carrie: You need to know Ensemble: CHORUS Mary: You don't gotta be a prisoner in your mind Ciara: If you fall, dust it off Mary: You can live your life Rihanna/Carrie: Yeah Mary: Let your heart be your guide Rihanna/Carrie: Yeah yeah yeah Mariah: And you will know that you're good if you trust in the good Ashanti: Everything will be alright, yeah Light up the dark, if you follow your heart Mary: And it will get better Mariah: Through whatever CHORUS Fergie: You got it in you, find it within You got in now, find it within now You got in you, find it within You got in now, find it within now You got in you, find it within Find it within you, find it within Everyone

Dolls and Spices

Spices--World domination?! a decade ago...

PCD---Doll domination??! really?

Pussycat Dolls CD review (get's a comparison with the Spices)

The Pussycat Dolls will never be confused with the Spice Girls.
Compared with the Dolls, who are like real-life Bratz dolls, the Spice Girls were champions of feminism, shouting "Girl Power!" at the top of their lungs, even if their short skirts and cleavage-baring tops sometimes trumped that message.The Pussycat Dolls, on the other hand, don't even pretend to stand for anything outside of a "Girls Gone Wild" fantasy in the flesh. To them, "Girl Power" means flashing a cameraman to get a free T-shirt and then high-fiving your gal pals.
Besides, at least you could name the five Spice Girls, if not by name then at least by their cheeky Spice monikers. But the Pussycat Dolls? Why, there's the one who sings and whose solo album was torpedoed before it was even released, then there's ... well, the other ones. Wait, how many are there again?

Despite the girls' lack of personality or individuality or reason for being outside of record company demographic research, the Pussycat Dolls' club-friendly hip-pop managed to strike a chord with listeners and aspiring Hooters waitresses everywhere, and the group's 2005 debut sold several million copies. Now comes the follow-up, "Doll Domination"; and like its predecessor, it mixes bouncy dance tracks with faux-serious ballads and vapid girls-night-out anthems. Put plainly, it's music to do body shots to.
The Dolls' M.O. is laid bare in lead single "When I Grow Up," a slinky number about the awesomeness of being famous. In a perfectly trite world, Kim Kardashian would grind to it on "Dancing with the Stars" -- keep your fingers crossed.
Slumming-for-a-paycheck producers Timbaland, Polow da Don, Rodney Jerkins and more make the proceedings at least passable, with sturdy beats that don't disrupt the status quo. Timbaland lends the ladies "Magic," which sounds like it came from Justin Timberlake's cast-off pile, while he offers up another variation on his "Cry Me a River"/ "What Goes Around" motif on "Halo." Polow da Don's "Out of this Club," meanwhile -- featuring R. Kelly, who keeps his libido in check -- could pass as a sequel to Usher's "Love in this Club."
The sexual metaphors on "Doll Domination" are stretched thinner than the Dolls' wardrobes, with "Bottle Pop" and "Elevator" offering barely veiled lyrics about various states of hooking up. And the particulars of "Watchamacallit" aren't exactly clear, though it's fairly certain the song isn't about candy bars.
Being the only member with a raison d'être besides looking sultry, lead Doll Nicole Scherzinger is saddled with most of the vocal duties, though the other girls get their crack at vocal duties on a bonus disc. No, they weren't even good enough to make the already overstuffed album.
Note: There were six Pussycat Dolls pictured on the cover of the group's debut album, and only five this time around. But wasn't there that reality show where they found a new member? Sadly, it doesn't even matter.
In a world of "Doll Domination," we're all slaves to marketing in its most slick, soulless form.
Girl power, shmirl power.

more Spice awards

Vodafone Reunion of the Year goes to Spice Girls

LONDON, Sept. 19 (UPI) -- The British pop group the Spice Girls won the prize for reunion of the year at the Vodafone Live Music Awards at the London rock venue Brixton Academy.
The Daily Telegraph said they beat out Led Zeppelin, the Verve and James for the honor.
The awards show featured performances by Glasvegas, The Automatic, Primal Scream, The Pussycat Dolls, Will Young and James Morrison.
Emma Bunton, who was the only Spice Girl present at the event, admitted she was "a bit shocked" to have won the award.
"We had a great time. So I just feel very lucky that I had the opportunity to do it again," the Telegraph quoted the performer formerly known as Baby Spice as saying. "The thing is, when you go to a gig, you go for fun and entertainment and a night out. And that's exactly what we did and I think that's why people enjoyed it so much."
Take That won the award for tour of the year, Kings of Leon the prize for best international live act, Mark Ronson the honor for best male live performance and Kate Nash the title of best female live performance, the newspaper said.